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November sucks

Nineteen years.

It's not yet the 11th in England which is what really matters I guess but it's the 11th here and i'm going to turn my phone off because I really don't want to deal with my dad and his guilt tripping over this day all over again. Every single fucking year it's the same.

If it weren't for you she'd still be here.

Mama must have the patience of a saint to deal with this. I never thought about it before but I kinda admire her just a little bit more because if you give me crap from so far away, chances are she's getting the brunt of it.

And every single year my birthday is ruined. People wonder why I don't like celebrating my birthday and well, how do you celebrate when your mother passed away four days before your 6th birthday?

I'm cranky. I get cranky from the 11th right up till the 15th lol. Birthday blues, memory blues, everything blues.

My husband is out on an overnight youth camp thing and I got a lot of writing done today because he wasn't home but now I want him home cos I need someone to cheer me up.


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If you need someone to cheer you up I can show you some nipples. Not mines of course, you wouldn't like it. I think... right? Or you wanna try...?

LOL I was just kidding. Better now? /hugglez

JJ loves long things like trunks and so on:


ROFLLLLLLLLLLLLL wrong gif, sorry


I have no words... None at all... Thank you, Marta. I'm just totally struck dumb and speechless now.

//crawls under the covers to hide//

It's Jejuko with shorter hair!

Funny how I don't get notifications of almost anything by email but most of your updates go there, my LJ loves you (but I don't, don't worry)

You don't love me?

//cries into my bucket of popcorn//

I think you would be happy without my love but ok, ok, come here little one


don't mind that person

/pats your belly/ there there there

Drag your OH home, lock yourselves in the room & engage in some Yunjae style bouts of recreational humping.

//hugs// It'll be all right

I don't have nipples or gifs for you but here's a big fat hug. Feel better soon.

I hope you feel better soon. Hugz.

*hugs* Happy Birthday! Although you don't like to celebrate, wishing you a happy Birthday doesn't hurt does it?
Your mother would love to wish you too. Your birth is a blessing that shouldn't be neglected. The pain your mother endured on the day of your birth should not be forgotten. When I celebrate my birthday every single year I barely celebrate my inducing age, but worship the sufferings my mother gladly paid for the sake of my life. :')

May god embrace the soul of your mother as well as the blue soul of yours to become more colorful ^^

I'm not as brave as the others. Can't show any body parts. Hihihi. But cuddles I can give. Don't worry ur not alone. I have almost the same problem. Every year. I just grew numb now although sometimes it still gets to me. Wow England. I would love to go there one day. It's on my bucket list! Cheer up ok!

*sits on a rock* don't really have anything to contribute but i'll sit with you till you feel better...

I don't have much to say, but I don't think that you're pathetic at all. I wish your OH could come back to you soon, since I'm miles away and probably totally incapable of being the kind of personal support that a person often needs whenever he/she undergoes such a negative situation. But, although I'm miles away from you, I do hope that you realize that I am also here for you in my own...little Anne way. :) If you need someone to talk to, or if you need any help, I'm here!

ILY, and may these dark days go away as soon and smoothly as possible. ^^ <3

Well, alcohol is always a number 2 solution for when your support rock is gone and shit is hitting the fan.

Cheers, girl. Don't let one insensitive asshole, pardon my insult upon kin, get you down. Believe me when I say it just isn't worth it to let a bitch take you down with him. Family or not, hurting because your hurt is never acceptable.

Ugh. :-/ That sounds tough... Childbirth, yeah I can see why he'd blame you then... But you were 6? How can it be your fault then? Doesn't matter though... If you don't wanna deal, then you don't have to. *hugs*

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