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Love In The Ice [interlude]
YJ01
beeswaxing
Title: Love in the Ice
Pairing: YunJae
Rating: R
Length: Chaptered
Genre: Non-AU, angst, fluff, romance
Disclaimer: I don't own anything apart from the story. I wish I had YunJae and if I had my way, they'd move to New Zealand so they can be married here

Summary: A script for a new mini-series is left in Yunho’s apartment by his manager, and as he reads it, he becomes more and more intrigued. Unbeknownst to him, one of the leads has already been cast, and the contracts signed. When he too is cast in the project after expressing interest in the part, he gets the shock of his life when he arrives for the script reading to be faced with a person from his past. Someone that he has spent years trying to pretend never existed. How will they be able to get through filming this without killing each other? Or worse…

AN1: Chapter 9 is taking so much out of me. I was sobbing barely five hundred words into the damn thing, and so I had to stop. I wrote this instead, because I just needed to let it out. I’ve never done such a thing in the middle of a fic before. This is a brief (294 words) interlude in the first person from where we left off last in LITI.

AN2: Oh and if you’re a new reader who has never read ICE, I really think you should because I will make a few references to it without actually spelling it out because the assumption is that everyone has read ICE and are familiar with the plot…






I cannot keep still.

The frission of awareness as his eyes slide over my body sends a telltale shiver up my back.

I don’t have to look up to know he is staring.

And he says my gaze is powerful?

Right back at you, U-Know Yunho.

How will I survive these next few months?

How will I survive seeing him almost every day?

Touching him brings nothing but pain, and it is something I have to change.

The question is how?

The better question is why?

Am I truly this much of a masochist to want to go through this again?

The memories of the final time we made love still echo in the recesses of my mind.

Can he read my thoughts?

I really fucking hope not.

I dare not look up, because time does not erase everything, and I’m not going to chance him realising why I’m trying not to cry.

I told myself I have to be strong.

But it’s easy to be strong when I’m alone.

Does that mean I’m stronger by myself then?

Or am I simply in denial?

The yearning is terrifying.

Why am I the only one feeling this?

Assumptions again, Kim Jaejoong. Why can’t I consider that he might be feeling it too?

Will it hurt less to assume he doesn’t? Or to ask and find that he does?

How do I tell him that despite the years, my lips hold only the memory of his body, and if anyone else were to taste me, they would taste only him…

And how do I ask him if the memory of my touch is like a stain on his skin, that if anyone else were to touch him, they would be touching me…

How?









AN: How? How? How? This hurts.


Beautiful, sad and amazing!!!
It was perfect!!!
Loved it!!!

Oh from first person POV! That's rare..

How.. You have to figures it out by your self.. You're a grown up man

Awww this is ao angsty. *sobs*
Love and pain...

Nicki ... chapter 9 is going to be heartbreaking & gut wrenching huh?

This little drabble is plenty angsty .. what'll a full blown chappie do to my emoshinki soul!!!!!

I look forward to it OTL !!!!!!

So much pain..they just need to work through it. YunJae are drama in and of itself, this project will show everyone in that drama just why they are better together than apart.

omg I totally love it
at least he's still being
honest on what he feels
about yunho...perfect!

Jaejoongie >__<

I'm so happy that you are writing on LITI even though I'm really sorry that you cried while writing. I don't always like angsty things. But I really can't wait for chapter 9 and since it's from you I just know I will love it ><

All the best!

Jaejoong's thoughts and emotions are so painful.

I dread what is coming in chapter 9 of LITI.

when I usually write or draw I tend to mix and think about it in my head for a while and when I have it clear or built I take it all out. I write kind of precisely with little words and each mean a lot...
the last couple of days I was working on depth of emotions... how to describe or to draw emotion as emotion... whatever a all thing....
I kinda cried tidy three or four times I think... not sad tears but... deep tears? it was just overwhelming....
so now in the evening I came across that and everything just came out....
it was really pretty.. I like the way you write emotions... your writing is quit powerful ... I like it...
I know you write for yourself and all... but thank you for writing. you give words to feelings and they help me form thoughts...

if it doesn't hurt this must, it wouldn't be yunjae

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