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...innocence is just an illusion...

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And November rolls around again. I had an epic meltdown a few days ago, and it took several hours for me to realise the root of the problem.

The 11th.

It's like everyone seems to just regress into what they were twenty years ago. My angry father, my disbelieving grandparents, my emotionally wrecked aunts and uncles.

And then there's me.

Running around the casket and smiling at everyone because I know my Mama is in a better place.

I'm not smiling now.

Twenty years to this very day
The memory of you hasn't faded away
Swings, laughter, a place in the sun

The phone calls are the same
The anger still there
But i'm used to it now, Mama
Really, I am

Do you see what your little girl has become?
Do you feel proud when you look down upon me?
Do I make you smile for surely heaven has no tears?
But then again this is me

Round and round the ragged rock
The ragged rascal ran
How many Rs are there in that?
Tell me quickly if you can

There are no Rs in that, Mama. Please don't be silly.

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"Eventually all of the pieces will fall into place. Until then, laugh at the confusion, live for the moment, and know that everything happens for a reason."
--Orebela Gbenga

It's fine to miss someone dear to you eonnie. Cry and feel the pain. But then don't let it bring you down. I may sound like "meehhh. you're just a kid. you don't know anything. sounds so typical..blah blah" but then, I know how it feels to lose someone you love. It hurts but the people around me comforts me. I hope whatever you're feeling now, you'd be okay. *tights hug*

PS: I read then re-read and read it again till I got the part there are no Rs in that. ugh. me. =_=

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