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The 5 Whys
Let's play a simple game...

My technical husband played this game with me.

Problem: You keep getting attacked in fandom.

1. Why?
Because i'm an easy target.

2. Why?
Because i'm "everywhere" thanks to my writing and I have a personality that can cause people to hate my guts.

3. Why?
Because my stories are well-known somehow, and it's actually pretty easy to dislike me.

4. Why?
Because they don't think I deserve to be "popular" and hate that I am.

5. Why?
How the fuck would I know? I'm not the moron(s) being stupid about fanfiction.

My husband face-palmed.

Conclusion: So basically, according to me, I keep getting attacked because people are morons... And I realised that i'm dismissive as hell and it practically oozes out of my pores at times and probably should dial it back OTL

I played this game with atriums too.
Problem: I keep getting attacked in fandom.

1. Why?
It would seem that people are jealous to the point of irrationality.

2. Why?
Perhaps you've got something they've always yearned for, whether it be happiness, writing talent, a lucrative career, so on and so forth.

3. Why?
Because you worked hard for what you have, and maybe they've been working hard too -- striving -- but somehow they've yet to earn the things you have.

4. Why?
A sense of entitlement.

5. Why?
Avarice, envy, wrath, lust, acedia -- five of the seven "deadly sins" that I personally believe are all just nothing more than the basics of humanity.

One of my favorite lyrics is the line "Sorrow made you" from the song The Invisible Wall by the GazettE, a Japanese band. And it's true -- because if you do not know sorrow (if you do not know the seven "deadly sins", not just sorrow) then you would not know and appreciate things like love and happiness and be able to appreciate them.

It goes along with the fact that it's okay to not like something. It's okay to lust, it's okay to envy -- but when they start coming together in a melting pot it just makes hatred. And that's not okay.


Conclusion: April is far more eloquent than me and all this hate is just an aspect of human nature which I can actually subscribe to. What I can't is understanding why people feel the need to expend all this energy on hating someone they don't even know.

Now how about you play it too?

I hate Beeswaxing/Nikki.

And maybe you'll discover something about yourself.

It's all about the game and how you play it.
All about control and if you can take it.
All about your debt and if you can pay it.
It's all about pain and who's gonna make it.


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So, I usually keep my silence on account of my being a near totally antisocial lurker, but having been around various fandoms for over a decade I've seen this song and dance more times than I care for. It always makes me furious.

I'm all about writer entitlement. I have two words for entitled readers: "Ungrateful bitches."

Or in the words of the legendary Dean Winchester, "Driver picks the music, shotgun shuts his cakehole." The writer is the driver.

Also this: "And I realised that i'm dismissive as hell and it practically oozes out of my pores at times and probably should dial it back OTL" Half the reason I love you so much is because of your attitude. I think you're awesome!

Also I will help hide any bodies... just saying.

When I was talking to April, I told her DBSK is probably only my second fandom and i've never ever seen shit like this go down before. The sheer time and effort people expend over this is incredible. I can't actually fathom it.

I'm sorry you've had to witness it in this fandom too. I love your Supernatural comments! I'm still stuck at season 5 or something lmao. Maybe I should get a move on OTL

Hehe I think with a personality like mine, you either love me or hate me. It's kinda hard to find a middle ground. Thank you for coming out of lurk to talk to me. I appreciate it a lot and no bodies to hide (yet)!

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